Wednesday, August 18, 2010

His Grace IS Sufficient

 Grace extends the hand that lifts us out of the miry clay, throws the rope that pulls us from the deepest pit, and lights the flame that brings us out of the darkest cave.

I can't believe that it's been a little over 4 weeks since my sweet little boy was born. The last four weeks have been such a blur. My memory has been terrible!!!!

Bryan and I have been so overwhelmed with the amount of love we have felt over the past few weeks. We are so humbled!! We had no idea how many people out there sincerely care about us. Thank you to everyone who has sent text messages, facebook messages, emails, letters, cards, etc. It's so healing to hear from people we don't even know that tell us that our story has helped them. We know that GOD has walked in front of us during this time in our lives and he has given us the strength and the comfort that we needed. He is so good all the time!!!

We are starting to feel some sense of closure but there are so many things that you never think of or know to expect. We got Eden's social security card in the mail last week and are still awaiting a death certificate. We also received a letter from our insurance company trying to get us to add Eden to the policy. Oops. It's like a punch in the gut every time something else comes in the mail. But, again, His grace really is sufficient.

I got an email FW: last week about the little things in life. It was a story about several people who worked in the World Trade Center building. It was 9/11. One person was the designated donut getter that day so they were late to work, another's alarm didn't go off, another's car didn't start.....you get the point. So, really, when we think that our day is going bad or we are annoyed by something that gets in our way, we should really by thankful.....God plans everything the way it is supposed to be.

We've been back to the doctor twice since Eden's birth. Some preliminary results have come back from the Mayo Clinic but it still doesn't tell us anything until we have the final report. We did get a final autopsy report yesterday. The things we learned from that report were that Eden actually had only 1 horseshoe shaped kidney instead of two. There were definitely cysts all over the kidney. He had a hole in his heart but it wasn't as enlarged as it looked on the sonogram. It was a little enlarged and had a small amount of fluid around it. None of the other organs seemed to be abnormal or have cysts. Bryan and I both had our blood drawn two weeks ago so that they could compare our genetic mappings to Eden's. At this point, that is all we know. We are hoping that we will have some answers in two weeks.

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:35, 38-39 NIV).